This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don’t.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don’t mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don’t mean a thing to me.
I spent two weeks in Silver lake
The California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks,
And she was beautiful but she didn’t mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she was beautiful but she didn’t mean a thing to me.
I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking,
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
All the playful misspellings
and every bite I gave you left a mark
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn’t want to fade
But they did, and so did I that day
All I see are dark Grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask “Is something wrong?”
I think “You’re damn right there is but we can’t talk about it now.
No, we can’t talk about it now.”
So one last touch and then you’ll go
And we’ll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but you don’t mean a thing to me
yeah you are beautiful but you don’t mean a thing to me (x2)
My best friend put me on probation.
Probation:
1. the act of testing.
2.the testing or trial of a person’s conduct, character, qualifications, or the like.
3.the state or period of such testing or trial.
I understand why she put me on probation from the opposite sex. I did something that was really out of character for me. After the incident I felt so disgusted and disappointed with myself. That I readily agreed that a probation was a good thing. It’s a month for me to reflect and figure out what I want. But the thing is I don’t exactly know what I want. I’m barely even sure that I know who I am. I feel lost and incomplete…I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I’m tired of putting up this charade for people. Why is it that no one will ever love me?
