February 2010
2 posts
Another day...
Here I am barely breathing. Barely living
Tiny Vessels
This is the moment that you know That you told her that you loved her but you don’t. You touch her skin and then you think That she is beautiful but she don’t mean a thing to me. Yeah, she is beautiful but she don’t mean a thing to me. I spent two weeks in Silver lake The California sun cascading down my face There was a girl with light brown streaks, And she was...
December 2009
1 post
There's this hole in my chest...you see
I miss my old life.
November 2009
4 posts
Giving up
I’ve realized that i’m tired of trying. So i’m done.
I need some liquid courage
I’m an idiot.
I need to take more chances.
Saying whatever happens, happens usually means nothing is going to happen.
Family...
I feel like I have always been an outcast in my family. There reasons for it are ridiculous of course but still it pains me to realize how much of a pariah I really am.
1. I don’t dress like they want me too.(tanks, jeans, and cons)
2. I don’t look like they want me too. (piercings and tattoos)
3. I’m open minded.
4. I’m an individual. ( I haven’t let them taint...
I need
to go out and take pictures.
I miss it.
I need it.
My only love.
<3
October 2009
6 posts
Void
I can’t sleep again….it’s 6 a.m. and i’m exhausted physically and mentally and yet I can’t fall asleep. I’m feeling especially emotional today and I don’t know why either. I didn’t want to go to the bar. But I went and I had a good time yet somehow i’m still feeling miserable. I have so many emotions coursing through me right now and I feel...
Another sleepless night
It’s 4 a.m. and I can’t seem to fall asleep.
“I could follow you to the beginning And just relive the start And maybe then we’ll remember to slow down To all of our favorite parts”
I can’t get this song out of my head particularly this verse. I remember laying on the floor in my room. We were facing each other and we were talking about different things. His...
Do you ever wish that she was me..
jessicaveronica:
Look at me.. In my eyes.
And tell me that you feel nothing inside.
Cause I can’t wash you off my skin..
..And I can’t see you..ever again.
.
.
-Jessica
God I know exactly how she feels… </3
September 2009
9 posts
“How many times do we live? Oh yeah. Once.”
– Ritz (via straynotlost)
Robot?
The topic was brought up that I cried the other day and Laura of course responded with “Mayra your not a robot!”. To which I replied with “yeah, I just don’t cry at bars.”.
MLIA
To whom it may concern:
You broke my heart…thus breaking me. I hate you.
Worlds Apart - Silverstein
Lying all alone, wishing you would call. Writing all my thoughts has broken all my bones. You gave it all up, you threw it all away. There’s nothing I can do. What do I think you’ve done? You know it’s even worse than what’s in my head. You don’t believe me when I tell you: I don’t want to be a fraud and pretend that everything’s fine. I...
....
I Hate myself for who i’ve become.
Despair
Why can’t I stop thinking about you?
You haunt me…
Move on...
I can’t keep making all the effort with you. Why won’t you put any effort into pursuing me for once? I’m tired of all this of all the games. You make me happy yet sad at the same time. I’ve been an emotional wreck since this all began. And I feel like you care yet at the same time you don’t give a shit. You don’t fucking care about me..the thought of that kills...
Special
Boy: “It’s just that no girl has ever made me feel special. I don’t feel important.”
Girl: (looks down and says) “Yea… I understand exactly how that feels.”
Looks at the boy sadly </3
